Thursday, January 3, 2002 *melancholy today... Ever have to do something that you know you must do but it hurts so much to do it? You'd rather ignore the whole thing and let it slide... but know that you've done that before and it only postpones the inevitable... and time has made it worse rather than better. These sayings: "sometimes it must get worse before it gets better..." and "doing nothing sometimes hurts more than doing something..." keep haunting me. And I can't explain in this journal. It's too public (well, not really that public since my readership numbers are not exactly mind-boggling). But still I wouldn't feel comfortable baring certain portions of my soul to the cyberworld. Just know that it's a difficult time due to certain circumstances and that I can only hope and pray that I have done the right thing... Well, I took down the garland over the mantle today, also the one over the doorway in the den. Plan to take the tree itself down this evening. All the ornaments are off and put away. House always looks so naked without the greenery. Guess the magic of Christmas is dwindling. Makes me feel like curling up by the fire with the cats and sleeping for a long long time... Enjoy what is left of today and hopefully, I'll have something more interesting to say tomorrow. Rian |
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