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Monday, September 23, 2002 * dread week... Yeh, yeh, I'm back in the Real World again. Not complaining really. In general, It's a really good place to be. But this week is the week of the dreaded bi-annual visits (at least I'm passed the quarterly visits). BS is Wednesday along with Mammos and whatever else Dr. H decides he needs (or I need). Oncol's is Thursday with Dr. S's Chest X-rays and blood drawn. It's really not so bad. I guess it's just having to anticipate the outcome that's bothersome... (such an inadequate word) Hard to explain really unless you've gone through it and so many of you probably have. On one hand you feel really lucky that you've gotten this far, on the other you wonder if you'll get any further... and still on the other, you beat yourself up for not being able to forget the whole "C" thing and act like Life is the way it was "Before" (but it never could be). Anyway, except for these visits and some reminders you live with, it almost comes down to a choice of denial or embracing... and I tend to vascilate back and forth. Enough of this. Will do it and that's it. Rian Click on right pic for Bonnie's Hand Project |
